ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

I HAVE OFFICIALLY SHIFTED THIS SITE TO THE FOLLOWING ADDRESS...

 

Helo once again, i'm back from hibernation. one month i've just been reading other's blogs and leaving myown's untouched. as usual,  lazy to think of what to type in here.

 

well, there was tournament in IMU i've been to. the sad thing is that i was the only guy representing my uni., and the only girl representing was my housemate.. and the coach/team manager??? my room mate...funny,  more like B2-1-12 sending representatives rather than MMU sending theirs'.

 

then there's the demonstration day held in MMU in conjunction with the Hari Patriotik celebration, where lots of ministers came to campus, including Siti Hasmah, forgive me for i don't know what title she is now, not that i care of anyway . we were supposed to perform a bit for the arrival of the ministers. well, since among the 6 of us, i was the only one who has yet to gained my black belt, i had to borrow from yenlu 1st. so, yea, that was my 1st time wearing a black... for pictures click here to Sue Anne's blog. And i know, i look somehow.. cacated wearing it, maybe its a bit too short for me i guess.

 

And most recently, i've just completed an assignment for ECP (computer subject) all by myself; which i'm very proud of. it was supposed to be a group assignment for 3 making a new website for our faculty's main page, and we did assign jobs for each members, what i was suppose to do was set up the layout of the website and icons/buttons placing. so i did what i was supposed to do, and as i was working on it, the more i did, the more it feels completed, and finally after 3 weekend days, it's now 90++% completed, with only a video which i still need to record with my digicam, but still havent found out ways to get rid of the background noise from the recording.

In other words, what my groupmate did was... linking links of text to their appropriate pages, which could be done in less than half and hour. and do notice i mentioned groupmate (singular), as for the other groupmate, i've yet to know what he has done nor hear from him since the only day of discussion. well, not that i'm grumbling or anything, at least this wasn't as hard as a lot of other assignments i had previously, and the truth is, this is the 1st very assignment i manage to do alone. before this, u know la, "eh, u guys did adi or not.. can pinjam ar..???" and that happens very near to deadlines. As for this time, there's still 2 weeks of grace period for me to tweak around the site and do bits of modification to it. Wah, i seriously damn proud laaaa.... no no no, my add-maths teacher last time told me to be humble a bit©... yes, must be humble A BIT......

After some time being idle, many things happened one after another, i could not possible say it exactly my problem, but they are either someone very close to me or a colleague whom i have worked together for the past few years. I'd never even thought of things like this to happen to any of them, things that are so unexpected to happen upon people who gave so much of their time and effort to do things that no one took the thrid glance on doing it. And why do they do it? This is all in the matter of their perception of what they have to do to get things in order, who would ever want own's work to be misjudged, to be taken for granted, to be said a phoney or whatever it is. No one! It hurts me enough to be hearing all this when told from the 1st person point of view, and it definitely hurts more when seeing tears from the eyes of the one you love... and not being able to do anything about it.

 

Putting yourself in one's shoes might enable you to see or possibly feel what's the other is feeling, but that is not even close enough to the person who is actually going through it themselves. And all i can do is just watch from the sidelines and try my best to be with them passing through it. True enough that wounds will heal, time will past, but scars remain, memory retains. The human mind is not as simple as a hard disk on your computer, you format it, its gone.... forever. If only it was to be that simple. Things others have done might effect another in a way or another whether the former knows it or not. I know how it feels to be said a liar myself, i've been accused of such before, and it's nowhere near of feeling a tad on the positive side about it. Even an accusation of simple matters like a missing candy for example, i may not have eaten it, but no one knows of that, or worse, your mouth smells like candy... and you're placed to be blamed by the mistakes of others. I don't call that fair, even criminals are given a trail before sentencing. Maybe i'm being too sensitive myself or being just too nosy, but who cares, who else would care. Well at least i might not know what to do, but hoping that i give a piece of my mind will make myself feel better about it knowing that i'm just giving myself an excuse to not think much about it.

 

Life IS full of things that one can't anticipate. But for all you know, He might be just trying to make us stronger. Whether you like it or not, i'll be with you all the way. This i can assure you.